The first one to blink... dies.

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

personal

My onshore manager told me thru IM that I did a Good Job this morning. I am elated to see him send that IM. After all these months of doing hard work, my hard to please and show appreciation onshore manager finally gave his thumbs up to me.

This means a lot to me considering the other groups have been showered with appreciation and praises by their counterparts. My onshore manager is also one of the few clients we have that is hard to manage and it gives me a sense of satisfaction I was able to meet his standards.

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

finally.

I just got an email from my Manager. Here it is:
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Subject: Great Job, Arvin! |

Hi Arvin,

I just want to pass on to you Onshore Project Manager's comment during our teamwkly status mtg. He commends you for being a very responsible team member. Everyone on the mtg heard that.

I think it was because of a couple of factors. Some that are quite obvious to me are the ff:

  1. You always make sure you understand requirements, timelines and your role, seeking clarification at earliest opportunity everytime youhave doubts.
  2. You always deliver on your commitments.
  3. You always try to be on top of the situation - coming up with andgiving Jamal alternative solutions or possible causes of issues andreporting on their progress.
  4. Always being available when Onshore Project Manager needs you.
  5. I'm sure there are more.

In behalf of the whole team, I would like to express to you our appreciation.

Project Manager (name withheld)

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My Onshore Project Manager is one of the most difficult to please client we have and receiving this from him is an achievement. I hope I can continue to do a better job and perform above the expectations of our clients.




Monday, September 20, 2004

nerves

Papa hurt his leg while bending over for something 2 weeks ago. I am recalling what happened to Papa last 1986...

1986, Midsayap, Cotabato
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Location: Main Road
Papa and his colleagues were walking back to their office. They just came from a bar after a drinking session when a gun shot rang in the air.

"Bang!"
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Location: Dorm
Mama heard a gun shot not too far awar from our dormitory. I was fast asleep during this time. My other siblings where still studying. Ate Tet was still in Baguio, Cheche was in Los Baños, and Kuya Alvic, was in Cotabato City. All of them were in colleges and as the youngest of the siblings, I am with my Papa and Mama here in Midsayap Town.

Mama's instinct told her something just went wrong. Papa's flashed thru her mind. She went to the drawer to get a shirt and jeans on. She started praying. "God, please take care of him..."


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Location: Main Road
All of them checked on what just happened and Papa, as the highest official from the group, asked "Sino tinamaan?!" He instinctively turned to check on his colleagues when he felt a pain in his abdomen.

Papa slumped thru the street as his colleagues picked him up. They do not know where he got shot exactly but they know he was bleeding in his abdomen. Someone was instructed to tell Mama of what just happened. They were trying to get someone who knows how to drive that time. Papa's driver was not part of the session. No one else knows how to drive.

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Location: Dorm

"Tok tok tok.."

Someone was knocking on our dormitory door. Mama went to open the door and saw Papa's employee in near tears.

"Ma'am... " she tried to speak but she chocked in the process.

"Si Sir mo ano?!" Mama asked as if she knew what just happened.

They rushed to Papa's office to meet the others.

When they got there, Papa was still speaking and was telling the others to calm down. Mama was able to get Dagul, the son of the dormitory owner to drive them to the Regional Hospital in the city more than 20 Kms away from our town.

Everyone was tense. Dagul was driving at almost 140kms per hour. The Papa spoked "Dagul, dahan dahan naman. Pag ako namatay dahil nabangga tayo, mumultuhin kita."

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Location: Dorm

Papa's employees where already there. I woke while everyone was crying. My puppy was urinating everywhere. I asked what happened and they just hugged me and cried. Someone started to lead the group in praying for the rosary.

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Location: Regional Hospital

Papa was already in the operating room. Mama just kept on praying. She prayed that Papa be ok. Mama never worked all the years since Papa married her. We lived with Mama always on our side while Papa did all types of Jobs. Some of them simultaneous. His promotion to Regional Manager made us be with him, if not we could have been still in Cabanatuan City living a difficult life.

After almost an eternity waiting for the operation to be concluded, the doctor informed Mama that Papa will be ok.

The gun shot hit papa a few millimeters away from the spine. It also went to bore a hole in his small intestine and it needed to be cut and then put together.

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The gunman was only 2 meters away when he pulled the trigger. There was supposed to be another shot to finish Papa off but luckily the pistol used was locally made and it jammed.

The gun shot was enough to cause Papa paralysis in his lower extremities. He needed rehab to gain back some balance to be able to walk. He got ok eventually but he never got back the balance he normally had. He limps his way a little without the use of the cane or his shoe braces. The event made him lost control of his foot because of destroyed nerves. It also gives him pain occasionally because of the nerve endings reporting irregular signals.

He got back to working though and he was ok eventually.

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2004, Tierra Grande, Lawa-an, Talisay City, Cebu

Two weeks ago, Papa was bending to cut his toe nails when felt a sudden pain in his leg.
They had an Xray and there were no results. The pain was stil there and his doctor advised that he take an MRI. The MRI result indicated a damaged nerve. He lost whatever remaining balance or strength to walk. He is under therapy again and if he fails to get back to the type of walking he had, he might consider retirement.


Friday, September 17, 2004

Change Control Number 1 Done

Change Control Number 1 is completed and good to go.
Change Control Number 2 is in progress...

I hope everything will be ok. Late luncha t 2PM expected after this Change Control.

Change Control Schedule

I have a change control schedule for my project this lunch time.

I hope everything works well.

It is very cold in the office brought by the rain outside. I'm happy to be wearing a warm clothing though.

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Working late

When I was still working in my previous company, going home at 12MN-2AM is ordinary. We have 2-3 not-going-hom-we-need-to-test streaks.

But now that I am here, it's a rarity.

The main difference is, before, I hate working long hours because I wanna go home and be with the people I love, and now, there is no one to go home to.

Dream of Me

Artist: Kristin Dunst
Song: Dream of Me
Album: "Get Over It" Movie Soundtrack

Let me sleep
For when I sleep I dream that you are here
You're mine
And all my fear is left behind
I float
On air
The nightengale sings gentle lullabies
So let me close my eyes...
And sleep, perchance to dream
So I can see the face I long to touch
To kiss
But only dreams can bring me this
So let the moon shine
Softly on the boy I long to see
And maybe when he dreams
He'll dream of me.

I hide beneath the clouds
And whisper to the evening stars
They tell me love is just a dream away...dream away...
A dream away.

So let the moon shine
Softly on the boy I long to see
And maybe when he dreams...
He'll dream of me.

Ohhhhhhhhhhh dream of me.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Enterworks

It’s funny how opportunities come and go.

I can lose count of all the companies I have applied and worked for and one I partly owned. But honestly, I know each and one of them.

I have worked for WebLinq, UNISTRESS, Design Ventures, Archos Business Systems, Ng Khai Development Corporation, Ingram Systems Philippines Inc., Cyber Innovation and Development Corporation, NEC Telecom Software Philippines, Inc., and Accenture.

I have received job offers from the following companies but politely declined: Soft Trigger, Bigfoot, Rosetta NET Phils., Advanced Science and Technology Institute, and NCR.

I also have been an instructor at Good Samaritan Colleges and Centre for International Education.

With all those experiences, I know I have what it takes to continue and plan for my career. Or do I know what I want to be when I’m 30?

God knows I am scared. I am scared of the direction of my career. All of my expectations and plans weren’t met and I have been working in the industry for 6 years now.

If early in my career I just got hooked in a stable and good company, I would be doing supervisory position by now.

But it was not meant to be.

I went from one company to another looking for the one company that I consider the ONE.

And here I am working in one of the best IT companies in the world yet I can not see myself completely happy.

I am happy. I am happy with my role and my responsibilities. But why do I sense something is missing?



Tuesday, September 07, 2004

back pain

i am having back pains for a couple of weeks now. i'm not sure if this is stress related, or it is because of my sitting posture.

i really need to improve on my posture because i have this tendency to slack and slouch a lot.


Monday, September 06, 2004

scrubbing streak

after my back to back 1st place finishes of MD5-Standard using my Ravager Affinity Deck, it seems I got to be so complacent that I have been making too many mistakes in the last 4 tournaments.
1. On the first 2 tournaments, I dropped once I got 1-2 records that didn't allow me to recover lost points.
2. I have been having play blunders all over the tournament by not taking the combo kill of Disciple of the Vault and Arcbound Ravager usually puttinh the opponent to just 1 life but not enought to kil him.


With Worlds 2004 finally over, I am decided to start my campaign to have better standings in all the tournaments I will be joining. I will not join if I am not confident enough that I will Top 8.